After so long ... Finally I get to talk to him on the phone for such a 'long time'. Although it's just a 45 minutes talk. Perhaps you guys will think is kinda short. But to me ... It's really LONG! Those who knows will understand why I say so ): It wasn't easy for me to get to talk to him. Everytime I called him, I will only get to talk to him for less than 30 seconds?! It's kinda pathetic luhs! I don't want a life like this & I don't wanna be treated in this way. But he just wanted to treat me like this. Rofl ` Actually I had made up my mind long ago ... Which is to say goodbye to him. I know the hardest thing in this world is to say goodbye. But it seems like he's the one who made me do so. Perhaps, I ain't the girl who he wanted to spend the whole life with. Face the truth man! >.< It's really hurting me inside. Boy, please! Let me go alright? I don't think I'll be able to take it anymore. I have tried several ways to salvage this r/s but ... Now, I feel so drained ): If you really want to save this r/s, please prove it to me! I don't want any empty promises. I already given you enough chances. No more chance will be given as I see no point of doing so. It wasn't easy for me to made up my mind. I have been thinking all this while. I hate to let you go. You makes me fall in love with you so deeply &now, you're also the one who makes me fall so deeply down. I ain't a toy, I'm a human being. Please get this crystal clear into your head. All along, I had this strong feelings. Which is ... I'm just a replacement of HER! If so, I'm sad to say that I have to go. No one wants to be the replacement of anyone. I know that it's ain't easy for you to put down. But you have to do so & move on with your life. If not, you'll forever staying on the same spot & nothing gonna change. Yes, I know she hurt you extremely deep. But can you please spare a thought for me? Her is her & me is me. We both are two DIFFERENT PERSON! You can't treat me the way she treats you. Cause I don't deserve such treatment at all. Perhaps you treat me as a replacement of her to revenge on. Please! If so, please fuck off from my life. I don't need it & I ain't the one who deserve all these treatments. I'll give you time to think through it. &tell me when you really knows what you want right now. I had enough all this while. All I can do now is wait for his answer. I know that I shouldn't give him too much time cause I'm the one suffering & not him. So, I'll just give him 3 days to think through it. Hopefully things won't turn out that bad (:
P.S: A big thank to those who are with me all this while. You guys are really a great friend of mine. I promise that the jolene you know in the past will be back soon ok? (: Just give me some time. Loves ♥
ღ JOLENE LEE ღ
19 June'9o Baby B is my FAVOURITE LOVE ; PERFECT TEN ♥ E-mail
♥ MR PERFECT TEN
Your smile is like the sunshine warming my day.
Your the first and last thing that makes me feel this way.
Your hugs started as a pat on my back, but now I can feel that they’re more then that.
Time will keep ticking, and we will grow old, but your hand in mine will never get cold.
Our love is more then affection.
Our love has the lords protection.
Your love is so strong and bright
it leaves me with a smile when i fall asleep at night,
when im dreaming hours seem as minutes
because i cherish every moment with you in it,
Waking up to your voice “good morning”
sends my heart and soul high a soaring,
love is said to last only till death
but our love will prove stronger than our final breath,
what i am saying is i love you for heavens sake
and when we die our love begins again at heavens gate
