i'm suppose to have a longer sleep today but mum woke me up & remind me to close all the windows when i go out.
mum, don't worry can ? since when did i forget to close the windows de. LOLs !
leave hse @ about 11plus & accompany bro walked all the way to YCK swimming complex.
the weather is damn hot can ?!
but i'm just too kind to accompany him there (:
after sending him to the swimming complex, went to take bus back to granny's hse.
suppose to do my art today but i haven get those pics from jowenn.
perhaps later after i had taken from her & i'll do it k ?
frankly speaking, granny's hse is kinda boring.
all i could do @ her place is sleep, eat, drink & rot.
can someone suggest something for me to do ?
but it's better than i'm alone @ home as whenever i'm alone @ home, i'll let my mind run wild & makes myself super sad ):
then the next moment, i'll find myself crying over such a 'stupid' thing.
sometimes, i find myself real stupid to cry over such a thing.
but my tears just can't stop flowing out from my eyes.
now, i'm feeling much better after so many days of crying.
thank all those people who's there for me all this while (:
don't worry ! no matter how hard it is, i'll stay strong till the end.
It's time for me to say goodbye !
today having geography papers.
i don't have all the notes & guess what ?!
just in the nick of time, jowenn came over to my hse & pass me all the notes.
so nice of her right ? smuacks ♥
if not, i sure die like hell =X
study awhile @ my place then dad drove us to school.
not long after we reach school, yoke hoon & munyin also reach & we sat @ the canteen, quickly read through all the notes that Mrs Ess had given.
I can see all of them is super nervous & stress :\
but guys, just try your best & don't think so much.
good luck to everyone taking O's (:
when i get the papers, i was thinking :" lucky jowenn passed me all the notes & those i had studied did come out."
but i didn't do well for agricultural as i had not time to study. ARGH !
got to study for my next papers, which is Maths & English.
jiayou for everyone especially to my dearest ones. loves ♥
got to go. bye everyone (:
the moment i woke up, tears flow out from my eyes.
suddenly, i miss him badly.
how i wish that the moment i wake up, i could receive his msg but ...
i'm feeling regrets now.
i ask myself this :" did i do anything wrong to deserve this type of treatment ? did my friend do the wrong thing by sending you that ? you really don't know how i feel for you or you just pretend you don't know anything ? what you treat me as ? do you know that how sad i was when things turn out this way ? "
i'm trying my best to be strong but i just can't.
whenever i know that you're with her, i feel so sad.
why am i not treated the same way as her ?
i can sense that you're much happier being with her than me.
whenever she's sad, you'll be there by her side.
but when i'm sad, are you there by my side ? NO!
everytime i tell you i'm feeling low, sometime you don't even bother to reply or you will ask me this :" huh? how come? lols. wad happen? tell mi. "
i know that you're concern but i just don't have the courage to tell you.
i scare that the moment i tell you why am i feeling this way, you won't reply me anymore.
that's why i choose to keep this, maybe i'm wrong.
things is already getting out of hand, i'm so lost & confused.
can someone slap me awake & tell me what to do ?
i don't want this to affect my O's but things just happen so sudden.
last year is N's & this year is O's.
why everytime when i'm having major exams, these type of thing will happen ?
i know that no one can control it but i'm always the one getting all these shit !
i'm really sick of it. ARGH !
can someone get me out of this insane world ?
BOY, PLEASE TELL ME THAT ALL THESE IS JUST A DREAM !
I WANT YOU BACK AGAIN !
I DON'T WANT THIS TO HAPPEN !
PLEASE COME BACK, BOY !
I REALLY MISS & NEED YOU BADLY !
I'M GOING TO BREAKDOWN SOON !
today meet up with love & eugene @ boon keng mac as we had plan to study together.
since we're @ mac so had our lunch @ mac (:
didn't really have the mood to study. sians !
study till 5.30pm & we headed to vivo to find huishanMARMIE.
she passed me a packet of chocolates & candies.
so sweet of her, thank marmiie.
departed from her & we went to walk around vivo city.
went up to the rooftop & slacked.
we were listening to some sentimental songs.
frankly speaking, me & eugene's mood was not that good except love.
guess what, the moment i listen to a particular song, i was crying bitterly.
how i wish that he's right here by my side.
i miss him damn badly :(
msg him & tell him how i feel but still, my tears just can't stop flowing.
i want see him NOW but he's out there with his friends. ARGH !
actually he wanna meet me to pass him the thing but due to something happen in between so in the end, we never meet up.
leave vivo @ about 9plus & headed back home.
was super tired after all those crying.
went to bed @ 12plus as i was on the phone with love.
P.S: LOVE ! don't worry, it's ain't your fault. i know you mean well for me & mean no harm. don't think so much ya ?
Eugene: thank for your console, i'm alright. you take care too, alright ? don't think so much. when it's time to let go, just let it go (:
today went to have lunch with my parents, both my sis & bro are not @ home.
went to S11 to have lunch, the food that they order ain't nice at all.
so oily & taste like hell ! yucks !
went to meet him for awhile & pass him thing.
after passing, he went to hub to meet them & i went back to find my parents.
afte eating, went to hub to buy some stuffs.
guess what, i bump into him @ NTUC.
was kinda shock but don't really feel anything (:
i saw her too. sians !
spoilt my mood can :\
after buying, went back home & do some self-revision as my next paper is on 24th.
went to raffles place to meet sis with bro as need to pass sis her things.
we're so kind can.
go all the way to raffles, just to pass her the things she want & leave.
she should be thankful that she got us as her siblings. hahas !
when we're on the way back, dad called me & say that he's coming to pick us up to granny's hse.
so nice of him luhs ! thank dad ♥
today's dinner was nice & i love granny's cooking (:
sis is not coming home tonight so just left me & bro. LOLs !
hmmm ` got to go now.
bye everyone (:
don worry, i'm alright after so many days of crying.
thanks for all your concern, really appreciate.
I'm lying here alone, hoping that you're beside me.
I'm so lost and confused, don't know if I had made the right decision.
I'm so afraid that I'll regret next time.
I really don't wish to give you up but I can't.
I want to be the one who stays by your side & keep you accompany.
I want to be the one who share your joys & sorrows with.
I want to be the one who's there for you when you need someone.
I want to be the one who you miss & pamper the most.
I want to be the one who you say you will stay.
That's so much things I wanna say to you but I just don't have the courage.
I'm feeling so down, can someone tell me what to do ?
Thanks CUTIE for the editing ♥
I may look happy on the outside but deep inside, I'm crying ♥
I wish that you're right here by my side ♥
I'm so afraid to face the truth ♥
Tell me what to do when things start to falls apart ♥
Thanks love for the editing ♥
Our baby prince ; brandon ♥
ARGH ! i super miss my baby cousin ; don don *
yesterday he went to m'sia with his mum & sis but i'm not able to send him off as i have to attend the graduation ceremony.
oh man, he will be going for 2 months. ARGH !
it's super LONG can ?!
how i wish that he'll be back soon :(
yesterday look @ those pictures that i took with him, make me wanna cry. sob *
i super duper miss my don don !
boy, quickly come back !
